Dexter
Saturday, June 19, 2010 4:29 PM
You know what i'm really attracted to?
Ew, no. Not THAT kind of attraction. I mean... fascinated by.
I seem to love when jazzy, happy salsa tunes play over gory and creepy scenes. It exudes this very chilling yet enjoyable superficiality, and it makes the whole crime seem like some joke. It's fun! Sorry, this thought occured to me because i've been watching Dexter lately (thanks Phoebe).
Well, Dexter is probably the only seriously detective sort of thriller i'd watch. Even read. (In addition to David Baldacci). That's right! I read more than one author now. Isn't that so revolutionary?! Ain't it? Yeah.
I like it when the detective gets personally involved, coupled with the fact that teenage Dexter is a much more attractive teenage version of Matt Thiessen (Relient K lead), plus look at his awesome hair! But the thing is, Dexter's a serial killer of serial killers. It's all so psychologically confusing, trust me, just read the book. Is it possible that such an old guy would appeal to the masses despite being such a twisted serial killer? What has the media done to today's people?!
So what propels me to update my blog?
1. Too lazy to do homework
2. Too lazy to exercise
3. Nothing to read up on the web
4. Too many reality TV shows to watch
5. No one to spend quality time with (right now any time would be quality time)
There. I said it. I'm a hopeless soulless lunatic who surfs the web, checks Facebook every other second, downloads way too many movies, stalks fictional characters on the web and is awake at ungodly hours.
See at this age, the average behaviour of a teenager would be "ugh, I need more shoes" or "I'd love to widen my social circle". I only participate in such acts virtually. On occasion i'd play games you would maybe classify "girly", and my social circle is limited to the number of Facebook friends I have. Needless to say it's preeetty sad.
I just gel with so few people. I mean, people identify me as "someone who seems okay with everyone". And I like being "okay" with everyone, but who actually "gets" me? I'd like to be around someone whom I can say anything to, and if it was offensive, hey! No hard feelings. I want to be comfortable around people, and have people be comfortable around me. There will always be those people who try not to exclude me when I'm not really into their interests (lians for example). Then they go off and laugh about their inside jokes with a circle of people just like them, leaving me to fend for myself in a world of lian-talk.
When am I going to snap out of this? And what is "this" exactly? I'm not even good at what I used to be anymore. (DING DING DING, teenage crisis alert!) I don't know what I want to do in the future. And no one around me seems to commit to the things I do.
I'm just another quirky person in the world, respected, but alone. Like Dexter. Complex and misunderstood.
I probably sound really pathetic right now, but that's because I am.
Saturday, June 19, 2010 4:29 PM
You know what i'm really attracted to?
Ew, no. Not THAT kind of attraction. I mean... fascinated by.
I seem to love when jazzy, happy salsa tunes play over gory and creepy scenes. It exudes this very chilling yet enjoyable superficiality, and it makes the whole crime seem like some joke. It's fun! Sorry, this thought occured to me because i've been watching Dexter lately (thanks Phoebe).
Well, Dexter is probably the only seriously detective sort of thriller i'd watch. Even read. (In addition to David Baldacci). That's right! I read more than one author now. Isn't that so revolutionary?! Ain't it? Yeah.
I like it when the detective gets personally involved, coupled with the fact that teenage Dexter is a much more attractive teenage version of Matt Thiessen (Relient K lead), plus look at his awesome hair! But the thing is, Dexter's a serial killer of serial killers. It's all so psychologically confusing, trust me, just read the book. Is it possible that such an old guy would appeal to the masses despite being such a twisted serial killer? What has the media done to today's people?!
So what propels me to update my blog?
1. Too lazy to do homework
2. Too lazy to exercise
3. Nothing to read up on the web
4. Too many reality TV shows to watch
5. No one to spend quality time with (right now any time would be quality time)
There. I said it. I'm a hopeless soulless lunatic who surfs the web, checks Facebook every other second, downloads way too many movies, stalks fictional characters on the web and is awake at ungodly hours.
See at this age, the average behaviour of a teenager would be "ugh, I need more shoes" or "I'd love to widen my social circle". I only participate in such acts virtually. On occasion i'd play games you would maybe classify "girly", and my social circle is limited to the number of Facebook friends I have. Needless to say it's preeetty sad.
I just gel with so few people. I mean, people identify me as "someone who seems okay with everyone". And I like being "okay" with everyone, but who actually "gets" me? I'd like to be around someone whom I can say anything to, and if it was offensive, hey! No hard feelings. I want to be comfortable around people, and have people be comfortable around me. There will always be those people who try not to exclude me when I'm not really into their interests (lians for example). Then they go off and laugh about their inside jokes with a circle of people just like them, leaving me to fend for myself in a world of lian-talk.
When am I going to snap out of this? And what is "this" exactly? I'm not even good at what I used to be anymore. (DING DING DING, teenage crisis alert!) I don't know what I want to do in the future. And no one around me seems to commit to the things I do.
I'm just another quirky person in the world, respected, but alone. Like Dexter. Complex and misunderstood.
I probably sound really pathetic right now, but that's because I am.